more then anything i used to want to feel happy again now that i do, i dont think i want it without the constant sadness im realizing how lonely and empty i am
i almost wish for the depression to pull me under again
Nothing is fun anymore. I don't get excited for anything. The things I used to enjoy doing now seem like a chore but I keep on trying anyway because I miss the feeling. I also miss a lot of people I'm probably never going to see again and even if I do see them it's not going to be the same because they've moved on and I'm still stuck in the past.
And the biggest problem is, I don't know whats wrong with me, so I can't fix myself even if I wanted too.
WOAH INTERESTING QUESTIONS
01:tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? Honestly, I don't like anybody rn.
02:what on your body is hurting or bothering you? my head
03:what was your last thought before going to bed last night? probably something depressing
04:what are you listening to? mayday parade- miserable at best
05:what’s something you’re not looking forward to? life after high school
06:where do you think your best friend is right now? somewhere, enjoying life
07:have you kissed anybody in the last five days? no
08:sex on the first date? sure
09:kiss on the first date? sure
10:is
Have you ever:1. Skipped class? yea
2. Done drugs? yea
3. Self harmed? yup
4. Drank? yea
5. Shoplifted? yea...
6. Gotten a tattoo? no
7. Broken up with someone? nope
What's your favorite:8. Show? right now, the 100 or shameless
9. Movie? spirit, possibly. got too many.
10. Song? right now - never lose your flames- issues
11. Tumblr? mine ;)
12. Singer/Band? ehh
13. Memory? dont have one
14. Book? too many
This or that:15. Invisibility or Ability to fly? invisibility
16. Cookies or Cake? cookies
17. Twitter or Facebook? fb
18. Movies or Books? movies
19. Coke or Sprite? sprite
20. Blind or Deaf? neither
21. Tea or Coff
I really need to do homework rn by Kurayami99, journal
I really need to do homework rn
1. had sex? No
2. bought condoms? No
3. gotten pregnant? No
4. failed a class? Yes
5. kissed a boy? Yes
6. kissed a girl? Yes
7. had a job? No
8. left the house without my wallet? Yes
9. bullied someone on the internet? Yes
10. sexted? Yes
11. had sex in public? No
12. smoked weed? yes
13. smoked cigarettes? yes
14. smoked a cigar? no
15. drank alcohol? yes
16. been to a wedding? no
17. been on the computer for 5 hours straight? lmao of course
18. watched tv for 5 hours straight? yup
19. been late for school? yea
20. kissed in the rain? no
21. showered with someone else? no
22. been outside my home country? no
23. been
more then anything i used to want to feel happy again
now that i do, i dont think i want it
without the constant sadness im realizing how lonely and empty i am
i almost wish for the depression to pull me under again
because i don't wanna feel a thing anymore by Kurayami99, journal
because i don't wanna feel a thing anymore
Nothing is fun anymore. I don't get excited for anything. The things I used to enjoy doing now seem like a chore but I keep on trying anyway because I miss the feeling. I also miss a lot of people I'm probably never going to see again and even if I do see them it's not going to be the same because they've moved on and I'm still stuck in the past.
And the biggest problem is, I don't know whats wrong with me, so I can't fix myself even if I wanted too.